once again...

why must all these befall on me again... ???

am i not worth it at all... ???

or, am i just a loser.. ???

seems like i m not worth it...

still remember my promises... but, it is all useless from now on...

self-compromising..

seriously, i have changed.. i am no longer the person you all used to know..

wat changed me.. ? no idea.. i just felt that i need the change in me..

this time, i really fell in too deeply.. so deeply, that i lost all sense of myself..

you might think that i will be able to pick myself up along the way.. but, this isn't the picture in my mind now..

want to know what i have in my mind.. ? well, i wish to know too..

but, all i can reveal is only blank.. blank... and blank..

filled with only white and black.. can you please give me back the colours.. ?

remember the termed i used? "you brought colours into my life.. ?" you really did.. but, things seen to have changed.. i dun know how to further elaborate.. but, well.. enough said.. :(

haha..

i wont do anymore stupid things... i wont...

but, come to think about it.. only stupid people will do stupid thing...

therefore, conclusion, i am stupid... haha..

argh!!!

argh!!!

confusion...

well.. going back to camp in like.. less than 6hrs time...

for what? i kanna guard duty on a weekend.. sian..

outta like 35 pple.. i m one of the 6 who got this treatment..

although its gonna be boring.. and sad.. but, i still gotta learn how to take it..

in anyway, everything has its first time.. may it be good or bad, they just keep happening..

hmmm.. dun know how to describe my current feeling now.. maybe coz i just woke up..

everything seems to weird.. everything.. :(

another book out!

after about 5 days in camp... now, i m out again!

this is just the second book out for my entire BMT/PTP phase... but, it marks the third week of military life for me...

btw, went for a pilot test during monday... was pretty fun... although, the tensed-up mood was there.. really feel tat i have hand and leg coordination problem... =D

forget abt camp stuffs.. dun wanna bring it out.. :P

well... what do i wanna do when i stepped onto the sunny island, Singapore? hmmm... i just wanna do one simple thing... tats all... tat is to find the special person i have been pinning for during my in-camp days...

tats all............................................................................................................................................................................

after confinement...

nope!!! i m not pregnant!

the confinement i meant was from civilian life...

was confined for the last two weeks at pulau tekong... woohoo... spent a solid 14days in camp with my new friends, platoon mates and company mates...

yup... pretty fast... hope the 14 days which just pasted could also be the same as my 2yrs of military lifestyle! =X

anyway, alot of things seems to have changed ever since i left for tekong..

what are the things... ? well, they are just things and matters.. dun wanna elaborate on it...

maybe, that is the feeling each and every recruit has after a confinement period..

just gotta learn how to cope with changes... hope this is only temporary..

hmmm... in about 6 more hours time, i m leaving singapore again.. back to tekong...

will be looking forward to the next booking out day.. which is, friday!!! =P

time flew!

well.. time has been very "kind"... passing so quickly that i don't even realise it... hahaha.. soon, it will be my enlistment le! tats the benchmark i used to determine the fast-flying-time... :D

anyway, not that i am afraid of enlistment.. i m just more afraid of the freedom in time i enjoy now.. times like being able to slack.. relax.. and do nothing.. most importantly, the times i can spend with my dear.. :P

oh.. btw, we went to Singapore Zoo! hahaha.. it was really really fun! serious! you guys shld spend some time there.. people keep mentioning... "no place to date ah! go till zoo..." but, seriously.. the zoo is a nice place to spend quality time with your partner.. i totally recommend the place! do note that the price to enter the zoo is pretty pricey too... SGD20/pax.. consider going to the zoo at an earlier hour.. coz, we spent 4 hrs there only manage to cover less than 3/4 of it..

on the other hand, u could consider spending the whole day there.. there is this back-to-back bundle promotion for the visitors to visit both the Zoo and Night Safari.. it only cost SGD28/pax... much more worth it than visiting both places at SGD20 each... :P

another thing.. i have already stopped working part-time.. now, relaxing at home.. hahaha... gonna do some training first before entering to be a real "man"... =D

alright.. i shall end with a few snippet of the photos we took at the zoo! :D


i really like this picture of my dear with the background of a goat.. niceee~ :P


staring incident with the pengiun!


dear had a shot with the pengiun too! btw, this is my current wallpaper.. :P


how i wish i could be a "white horse" in the army too... :D

btw, this white horse is very interesting.. she actually went all the way to the pathway to "entertain" us.. even took photos with us without moving! the interesting part is, when we left, she seems pretty upset.. thereafter, a family came over.. and, she(the horse) walked away from the family! hahaha.. must be see some yandao and chiobu thats why she walked over.. :D *oOps*


i love this photo! so sweet! ;)

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tied down!

alright.. lately, been tied down with my work...

schedule for the days are like... wake up... go work... work finish, go home.. then, meet my darling ger.. and, end of the day!

well... dread the first half of the day... coz of the work... but, simply love and cherish the second half of the day... coz of my dear! ;)

btw, went to watch Poseidon.. it was like... abit overblown from the movie trailers.. it is worth the $7 to watch, during the early weekdays.. but, not worth the $9 to watch, during the weekends.. yup..

another show, "Voice", is a movie which is quite far-fetched.. in the sense that you must be super attentive to the show before you can catch the gapse of the movie..

so, if you are planning to catch any of the above mentioned movie, please select with care! :P

alright.. shall get my a*s back to work now... heehee... ;)

updates~

finally... finally back here to do some updating...

hahaha... been like more than a month since my last blog entry... i think, the site here is already gathering loads of spider web... so, yup... take care while navigating around.. :P

well, been busy lately... (*jeers*) okok... been busy cum LAZY... hahhaa.. didn't really got the chance to sit down and blog.. (*JEERS*).. :P

important events that went by during these time of adsence~

my bday! (28th April 2006)... yup... i got older by a year le... hmmm... spent the day with my dear.. doing what? nothing but slping.. HAHAHA... the actual event of happenings came only during the late afternoon.. when we went to Cathay Cineplex to catch a movie(The Sentinel).. HAHAHA... tracking back the time there, there was this very funny incident..

well, i only brought abt $24++ in my wallet in cash.. while my dear had $0... hahaha.. then, most of the $24 was spent on purchasing the tickets.. therefore, was left with very little cash.. thinking that there should be an ATM around the building, i happily went on to ask one of the cashier where i could locate an ATM... got startled when he replied that the nearest ATM is way back at Plaza Singapura... then i was like "HUH!?" btw, my show was scheduled to start in abt 15mins time... tat explains for the reply i gave.. hahaha.. blardy hell... one whole big building, not even an ATM around.. so pathetic! but, judging tat the building is new, i think i shall forgive them.. hahaha.. so, both of us were so patheticly searching for coins in our skinny little wallets.. but still, couldn't gather enough.. hahaha.. damn jialat lei... cannot tahan sia.. finally, i took out a $10 from my wallet.. which i think should represent some meaningful meaning(which i forgot) from it.. and used to purchase our food and beverages.. hahaha..

after the show, guowei called me... saying that he wanna meet me and greet me for my bday.. so, i was like.. okay... and he suggested going out for dinner together.. then, he asked me where i wanted to have the dinner.. i jokingly suggested Swissotel Hotel's level 70 restaurant.. to my surprise.. that bugger really went to book a table there.. but, lucky enuff, the restaurant was fully booked.. hahaha.. my bday lei.. everyone snatching table from me.. hahaha.. :X

we ended up settling at one of the restaurant located at Suntec City... ate some Cheese Fordue... Chocolate Fordue... woohooo... can u imagine... all the melted cheese and chocolate... tasty! but, fattening too.. :X

tat kinda sums up my bday celebration...

as for what i have been doing lately... been working(data entry) at a company since 3weeks ago.. planning to stop the work by the end of this month... and yup... that kinda sums up everything!!! :X

will update whenever i find time to do so... =P

till then, you people take care, k? :) :) :)

wait is over!

hahaha.. the wait is over!

finally... i got my enlistment letter from mindef!!!

here goes nothing: ...

"You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 10 JUN 2006 (SAT) AT 2.30PM to BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL 1 (BMTC SCH 1)"

woohoo!

as of 10 JUN 2006, my official residence will be changed to

"Basic Military Training Centre School, Pulau Tekong Besar, Singapore 508450"

hahaha... ;)

quote?

"Do not determine the inside when you don't even know the outcome"

this is a quote which i came across while out with my ah ma the other time... hmmm... well, its not the actual quote.. but, still, the actual meaning of it is the same..

i totally agree with the statement.. you won't be able to determine the inside when you haven't even tried knowing it... even when you tried it, you won't be able to achieve and know fully the "inside"...

this inside could stand for someone... could also stand for an item.. whatever the case which suits the situation right...

hmmm... just find it meaningful and wanna share it with you guys...

anyway, till now, i have yet to receive my enlistment letter!!! where did it went, Mr. Postman!? :<

come come... Government!!! take me into enlistment act! looking forward to it... :)

thoughts?

been thinking alot this few days...

but, mainly, two things have occured much within my mind...

firstly, is my application to the university... i notice that quite a number of my friends have already got some idea tat they have been somehow "accepted" into further education in the local universities... as for me, till now, i have got simply no idea whats happening to my application... but, in any sense, i think i shouldn't think too much... have abit ironed out on my thoughts... if i cant get into a local education, guess, i have to move out of singapore to receive it... the conclusion is, i definitely want to get a degree to work on my further work life... !

secondly... is the enlistment letter... everyone is receiving it already... only me.. left wondering whether will i get my letter soon... not that i am afraid of NS... but, i just dun want to miss out what everyone is getting... on top of that, my ah ma(Willyn) told me that her friend had waited for a year after graduation for the letter... but, it didn't come at all... it was only found out when he called them that his enlistment application has somehow been "forgotten"... not long after his phone call, then, his letter came...

well, it might be in ur mind now that i should be giving the authorities a call now... but, i have also heard from my other friends that making such call, the ministry will just slot you into one of the units... and, there goes whatever dreams you have... be a storeman...

argh! what a struggle... :<

one last thing to mention... finished reading a book... hmmm... come to think about it... its the first book i finished reading ever since my secondary literature textbooks... woohooo! :)

sObz...

was sick the past few days... what kinda illness... ? flu + sore throat...

hahaha.. first time in my life, okok.. from what i can remember lah..., my sore throat is so bad till it affected my speech.. i practically had no voice during the early days of the sore throat.. the voice was so bad that my dear even branded me as a "mute" and doesn't want me... hahaha... :
anyway, nothing much to update.. just that, TP D&D has already came to an end.. well, the D&D was pretty nice.. at Pan Pacific Hotel.. but, the service there sucks.. waiter talk like he manager.. acts like ah gua.. and, best of all, we had to be served by him.. with the servings needless to say, going thru his hands.. and, him, touching the food on numerous occasions.. LOL.. yucks.. *goosebumps*

gotta go think of where to go later le.. will be back to update whenever i have the time to.. =P

what m i... ?

i really dun know what to blog about lately...

just feel like rattling some nonsense.. which i always does..

lately, been working at chan bros again.. well, i would say, the time working there is quite fulfilling.. as in, dun even have much time to slack abt... working all the while... why? coz, the calls never seem to end..

and, due to such pattern of calls, i get easily frustrated... well, tats the usual me.. getting the "heat" even by the slightest spark of fire ever can be found... oh man.. i really have a hot temper here... yes.. i realise this... and, ya... i realised it very long ago... just find it pretty hard to curb this temper of my... =
sighz... not only the temper... been pretty tired up by my work... maybe the reason to this tireness is probably the results of the previous slacking months... hahaha.. so, who is to blame.. ?

thats none other than Mr. Aaron Ting. :)

the return...

hahaha.. just got back from my trip to Genting...

went there for a duration of 3days 4nights.. together with my sec. sch. friends, leonard, john and gary...

hmmm... yup... 4 guys went there together... to have a getaway from the lifestyle of typical singaporeans.. except for me.. hahaha.. who has been relaxing all the while! :D

feeling abit slpy now... shld continue blogging with the adventures of genting later during the day!

:) :) :)

lately...

been spending alot lately...

gonna curb my spending habits...

oh.. btw, i have finally decided, i shall start working again!

this time round, i will be like the previous yrs.. decided to work like no day no night.. why? coz, i just can't stand the sight of people working.. while, me, slacking... thought through and decided, it is being very unhealthy of me if i continue slacking so... =D

it might sound weird.. but, well, just decided to do what my heart desires to.. of course, i will try not to neglect anyone in the course of my job pursue desire.. :P

oh well, whats more important now is... SAVE money!!! can u imagine.. spending so much till i get pretty worried abt it now.. ? how irritating this feeling could get.. worried over my spendings... worried over the rest of the days.. whether i have enuff for the basic neccessities.. ah!!! SCARY!!! -_-'

song dedication...

宇恒 - 依然是朋友

情人节的前一天,他离开你身边
却剩下你到至今的想念,
那一夜我陪着你,你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你,你怎么说
你知道好事不是从此避开我
哦,我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过

才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友
谁会有勇气去开口
不在乎不再难过
我们还有好大好大的借口喔～
故事的最后
我们都不曾失去过什么
我们依然是朋友
噢～

A dedication to my friend, ah sui.. ;)

traveller... ~

well, as i have said in the previous posting... been going out ever since i picked up my driving after my return from india...

hmmm... really drove loads... i think, from just one week, i am able to drive round Singapore, at its perimeter, for about 3-4 rounds.. hahaha.. simply just feel like driving abt.. whether to a destination or not... still, juz wanna drive abt.. =P

went to Boat Quay just now... to have a meal at this Italian restaurant... the purpose of the visit is not just for a meal.. but, to celebrate in advance, Wendy's bday...

Many turned up... so, it was quite a crowd.. hahaa.. at there, i signed the biggest amount of money with my card ever since i got it.. it costed about $258+.. nah.. gotta pay my dad for the sum i signed.. so, no free meal for me and the rest.. LOL..

after the meal, went to Coffee Bean to chill.. but, didn't took us long before we decide to move on.. this time round, to Pasir Ris, Fisherman's Village..

a chill out session was what we had there... sitting down.. talking abt nonsense.. whatever we can think of, we just simply spilled it out.. hahaha.. as i wasn't really at the peak of my mood, i just simply sat there and look at the stars.. the planes that took off at the nearby Changi Airport.. nice.. love such moments.. but, would have been a better time if i had my dear with me.. :)

alright.. thats all for now.. till then, take care, folks! ;)

weehee!

been some time since i last updated my blog...

anyway, been out lately till the wee hours... having fun ever since i started picking up my driving.. *grinZ*

went many places... including my ENC Chalet... chill out sessions... and many others!

one thing worth mentioning.. JewelBox at Mount. Faber is really nice!!! they have a fantastic ambience up there.. with many many customers from the different walks of life.. not forgetting, the pretty and interesting waitress who took our order.. hahaha..

it started out with a cocktail named, "Pussy Foot"... the waitress thought my friend was asking for "Seafood"... hahaha.. and she kept repeating, "No seafood here..." then, we were like, "diaO~"... hahaha.. finally she got the drink's name.. then, i wanted to order 2 bowls of french fries... so, i told her, "Can i have 2 bowls of fries?" she repeated the order as, "2 boils of rice"... she must be wondering.. why on earth is this bunch of pple ordering rice for?! and, we were wondering, why would we want rice for?! LOL... then, she apologized for her mistakes... ahahaha... funny waitress.. :P

oh well, other then tat, nothing much happened... tat explains for my life over the past week.. ;)