Sunday, August 26, 2007

finisher!

oh yeah... i am a finisher of 21.1km run~!

hahaha... did it in abt 2hrs...

don't really know the timing... although i did timed it myself..

but, it was sorta fast under my stop watch...

don't know if it is real or not...

1hr 44mins...

like abit too fast and unbelievable lei...

so, all i could do, is just wait for the official timing to be posted out..

hopefully i could catch a glimpse of it...

wasn't easy at all... yes.. i admit.. !

during the run, was quite pissed off by people blocking my way...

50% of my concentration was put on looking out for others... wa lao.. where can like tat one...

they can just suddenly stopped running in the middle of that small pathetic walkpath @ ecp...

in the end, i bumped into two runners while trying to overtake them..

one of them just simply stop like that... basket... make me feel damn bad lor..

then, due to too long of a distance to cover, i stopped abt 3 times...

while making a turn at the last 2km, i almost sprained my ankle..

just suddenly felt a sharp pain coming from it... wa lao..

then, i started walking... but not long later, decided to run... and, again, the pain came...

luckily there was a final water point lah...

drank some 100 plus, and, forced myself to run again... this time rd, lucky enough for me, the pain was gone~

woohooo!

lastly, i realise that the medal was like for everyone, while stocks last those kind...

as long as u complete the run, u will get it..

no wonder they call it the "finisher medal"...

whatever the case, still felt a sense of achievement... !

shall carry on doing more running to bring down my weight!

hahaha... and, to mention about weight, 1 more kg lesser for me! :P


(ps: suffering from two big patch of abrasions at my groin area... wa lao.. damn pain lah... ! =< )

Saturday, August 25, 2007

after so long!

been quite some time since i last slept on my bed overnight...

hahaha... sorta miss it... and, yes! i miss it alot~!

finally.. got home.. ~

spent the night meeting up with my poly friends..

hmmm... everyone seems to be doing good at their own vocations...

yes... as usual... guys outing is packed with army life conversations...

and, as i wondered, why do we always pick up the same topic?

there, i thought... what other topics have we got in common when we only spend 2 days as civilian? talk about the latest happenings in town?

come on.. isnt practical at all... not everyone get a chance to book out during the weekends...

for example, i just had 2 days out in the civilian world for the past 14days...

can be considered as being isolated from normal lifestyle...

so, ladies, pls don't complain...

try to understand our situation...

you wouldn't want guys meeting up with their friends and not talking at all, rite?

we do get bored over army stuffs too... but, what can we do.. ?

hahaha... !

and, here comes my fair share of army life again...

with great reluntance, i ran my 16km during last tues...

was quite okay... just that, typical me, i "pushed" myself mentally in trying to finish the whole thing w/o stopping... and, yes.. i did it... ~

the thought of it was really torturous... but, no choice.. i so wanna get the finisher's medal lah...

wanna increase the toll of my medals as more momentoes whereby i can use to rmbr my time in service..

what to do.. abit lifeless.. but, thats the only "entertainment" and "achievement" i can get during the next 10mths..

and, been very conscious about my eating habit lately...

dun wanna turn out to become fat man...

results are already showing.. though it isnt very significant.. weight going down by 2!

a little step taken is a big way to success!

start giving myself some believes~

Sunday, August 19, 2007

what come may...

as if a monday-friday work schedule for the past wasnt enough to kill me...

now, i got a more than that timing to cope with!

inclusion of weekends is sorta quite tough.. but, definately, it was up for some cost..

haha.. tempted by the additional perks that came with it.. sorta a good one too!

yea.. talking about the add-on duties for the coming days(actually, i just did a consecutive saturdays duty as per started last week!)..

never liked doing it on saturdays... coz, it really limits your choice of where u wanna go...

on the other hand, when you are back @ ur snail place, u just wanna doze off to a deep good dream! which i just did... and, it happened for a whipping 6hrs tenure!!! wa lao.. what a waste of it..

but, judging from what happened during the morning, i was just able to gather abt 3hrs of rest.. from an office which only offers a couch, with my makeshift addition of my blanket and pillow.. addition of my little bolster.. and, the on-playing radio of 933.. alright lah.. plus!!! the always not working air-condition, which i thought a ceiling fan could have done a much better job than of the latter..., how can life goes on well for me?!

wa liew... still cant get my movie kaki lah.. tried asking so many pple liao.. all rejecting me somehow..

show some mercy to the unwanted lei... !!!

not my fault for telling you all last minute k... just that you people dont spend a wheeny of ur time @ my blog to know what i want ma... hahhaa... "tai-ji" the fault away from myself only.. :P

Thursday, August 16, 2007


went out looking for this julie's biscuit earlier on... and, found out that it was totally out of stock!
that was after visiting three supermarkets before finding it out...
and, i wondered, biscuits only ma.. got such big demands on it one meh...
hahaha.. shocking lei... !
and, for that, i have make a wasted trip down to the supermarkets... spent abt an hr going around... walking up and down the biscuits section... trying to locate something which is outta stock... hahaha... felt abit dumb... ~
yeap.. anyway, sorta regret how i spent my days as a civilian... hahaha.. as usual... stayed at home to play game.. so wu liao, rite? 没办法。。人缘不好。。哈哈哈!
had wanted so much to go catch a movie la.. but, no one have time for me... so sad.. ~
so many movies i wanna catch lah... esp. rush hr 3... but, no movie kaki!~
and, i think, its probably becoz i choose my movie kaki.. thats why.. left with not many choices.. hahahhaa!!!! so, in the end, i realise, i brought all these to myself~ hahaha.. :X
ok lah... dun really know what i wanna say anymore.. just that, i shld be having duties on sat... which makes me not feel like booking out tmr.. coz, sees no point in doing so... booking out at 5-6pm... then, booking in at 11-1159pm... whats the point sia... -_-"

hmmm!

at home since yesterday!

haha... finally... another taste of the non-military lifestyle..

but then, it is only gonna last another 24hrs? before i return to the same old me... and, gonna be like for 10 more mths!!! omg omg omg!!!

hmm~ oh yeah.. though i did nothing throughout the day, i still feel contented.. contented in the sense that i feel great!

yeap...

actually, nothing much to update... just feel like rubbish my way thru abit...

oh.. one thing.. getting irritated somehow.. my skin is peeling!!! hate it hate it hate it!!! very irritated by it sia...

kept peeling.. then, cant wear sleeveless outside liao... got patches of white and dark coloured skin... damn freaking ugly lah... like what i mentioned in my previous post.. sorta regret for not putting on lotion!!! grrr....

one last thing... i gave out the 3rd bouquet or flowers in my life! weee.... ! actually, wanted to give it to her for a very long time le.. just that, there wasnt any proper reason to do so... tat explains what took this long.. hahaha... yeah...

wanted to help you put on the necklace de.. but, dun dare to ask..

hahaha... and, i so miss the feeling of hugging!!! >.<~

Monday, August 13, 2007

shit...

siao lah...

my worst fear have had happened!!!

my skin is starting to peel... :< :< :<

shld have put moisturiser la... damn it lor..

somemore, the skin peeling is on my face lah...

help la... *sObs*

anyway, got a bigger upset than the skin peeling thingie...

just found out that i need to do 6-7 duties from now till end of this month..

wa kao... no.. they are not considered as "extras"...

i am just doing all these duties to cover the others who will be busy starting from tmr onwards...

and, within the 6-7, 2 of them are gonna be weekends de!!! wa liew... depriving me off more freedom le...

i can grumble... i can make a big fuss over it... at the end of the day, i still need to complete it.. hahaha.. so, i choose not to make a big scene over it~ just need to grumble over it for awhile... hahaha...~


oh man... i dunno if i am doing the right decision here... but, if i continue with my current decision, i know, i will come to regret it some day... just whether, will it be a long long regret... or, just a short one... more likely the former ba... :(

i better go slp early... gotta wakey early tmr.. shall "bullshit" more another day...

Sunday, August 12, 2007

its all over...

yup.. over~

disappointments are just part and parcel of being in life..

as per said, ups and downs are probably what everyone have to go thru in their roles as human being.. so, i must try to accept it gracefully at end day~

yes.. i will go thru it! i will handle it~ and, i will make sure that i come out of it in one piece~ heh heh..

oh yes.. lets just talk about some other things instead of my matters of the heart.. it is getting kinda bored, isnt it? (yes yes.. i live in a boring love life.. who doesn't? fine.. maybe me only..)

recently, for those who are aware of the latest news ard us, i guess you all heard about the kidnapping/abducting case of the south koreans at afghanistan..

yup... i am glad that they, the kidnappers, are finally agreeable to release the hostages.. i am happy that the volunteers are finally getting their freedom.. but, their freedom are being exchanged for some underhand demands.. which i am not agreeable at all for the authorities yet again, gave in to those despicable inhumane people...

i always thought, if the authorities are agreeable to those underhand terms laid down by the kidnappers' demands, wouldn't it be like just telling them, "please kidnap more people.. therefore, we can agree to your underhand terms?"? to me, it is more like encouraging them to kidnap than to deter them from using such despicable acts..

what more, those they kidnapped are people who volunteered their precious time and life to be helping those in need at a war-torn country.. cant they(kidnappers) view them more like samaritan who are willing to help people in need?

and, i wonder, why are they depriving their own people from receiving precious help...

probably, i am just a normal being not understanding their situation... but, what rights do they have to say that they understand their fellow natives? do they really know what others are thinking? in name, they claim, they are fighting for freedom... does their freedom includes seeing their fellow citizens starving and begging for food?

of course, they can work their way to self-sufficient... and, end up like an isolated state equivalent to south korea's neighbour...

with all these, i cant help but to be reminded of a saying which i got to know and agreeable from the conversation of some of my camp mates...

they were saying that history is more like created by the victors of the past... and, the down side of it is usually describing the bad side of those being defeated by them..

i.e. to say, if japan continued to rule over singapore, who knows.. maybe, all of my generation will be more pro-japanese.. and, being taught how bad our status would have been if we remained a colonial state..

aiya.. going into history le... dunno man.. just have alot of things to rattle about today.. maybe all these thoughts have been stirred up after my visit to other people's blogs....

just find that this world is filled with choices... you choose what you chose... you either stay "loyal" to ur choice by trying to determine how good your choice have affected and changed your life, or, start grumbling on what a terrible mistake you have make when making the decision..

yes.. everyone have their own views of what they see and hear... so do i, entitled to have my own..




this is the type of Aaron once you put him on duty for the weekends... he starts thinking of things... and, once he is tired out, he will just rattle whatever he have thoughts of... hahaha... conclusion, dun give me duties!!! hahaha.. :D

Saturday, August 11, 2007

something..

this amount of disappointment is not what anyone or everyone can describe of...

the anxiety...

the hope...

the looking-forward to...

it is all dashed. Period.

Friday, August 10, 2007

40

yeap.. 40..

haahaa.. went out with the guys on national day..

almost din want to go.. but yet, decided to turn up..

nice nice nice..

played lotsa things..

did many things i din wanna do in the past..

hahaha..

tried so many back flips too.. which all turned out to be flops..

hahaha.. who knows.. maybe, one day, i can really flip and land on my feet w/o needing the water to "cushion" me.. hahaha.. well, i am just listening to what i wanna listen.. although i know that wont happen lah.. *grinZ*

oh.. and, sry guys.. wanted to watch the parade with my parents... so, din join u all for dinner.. nonetheless, i guess, we will have plenty of chance, rite? lets just brace ourselves for the upcoming AOH!

oh.. and, i like the tanned colour the sun have left me! i hope they stays intact.. as in, my skin.. hahaha.. :D

hmmm... fun aside.. well, started to think for myself too..

maybe.. maybe.. things shld just get soften down.. and slowly, being forgotten ba.. right?

nope.. not saying i have no fighting spirit.. just that, why fight a battle when everything seems so bleak... why suffer more "casualties" when u can save "lives"? is it for what others say, "At the end of the day, at least you know you tried"? or, is it more like proving to urself that "You are the best.. and, you can achieve what others can't"?

for me, all those sentence are more like deceiving individuals in trying to attain what they think they want..

yes.. i believe in miracles.. but, like what everyone says... they dont always happen.. that is why it is known as miracle..

i guess, with all these, i shall rest my case.. that is unless, there is a miracle.. which of course, i must be able to sense it... else, i shall just continue with my lifestyle.. like it have always been..

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

yes!

finally, the torturous week is abt to be over!

last sunday's activitiy have since completed...

outfield, no more!

but... talking about this outfield..

as everyone know.. this period of time is the best breeding season for the mozzies...

and, did a head-count.. err.. bite-count earlier on..

cant believe the numbers man...

got more than 20+ bites on my whole body!

my hands already got like more than 10...

the best part is, for the whole outfield, i was in uniform.. and yet, i got bites on my body!

what is more embarrassing is tat.. i even had bites on my butt!!!

wa lao..

does it really mean that training troops area really have many "commando" mozzies... ?? :<

Monday, August 06, 2007

long time ago...

hmm... quite long since i last updated..

did many things in the process of being MIA...

had my fair share of running... 14km @ East Coast Park..

woohooo... ran throughout.. although many a times, really felt like giving out... but, pushed on somehow...

ahhh... training... training... training...

it seems that recently, my life have just been revolving around all these..

nothing new.. nothing exciting... nothing that seems to be able to spur me on...

sad...

whatever the case, i just dont know how this sorta life carries on..

really want very much to have a break from it...

no.. i am not suffering from a mental breakdown..

just want something new to happen in my life...

oh man... things are just getting outta control la..

whats more... i have an outfield for 2 days n 1 night this coming tuesday.. which is tmr...

argh... how sad... how i wish i can just get a word or two of encouragement from the one i hope to get...

>.<~

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

ouch...

ran 12km earlier during this week...

or, shld i say, i was struggling to finish the 12km..

in the end, i ran only 10.5km... thinking that i have completed 12km...

was quite a struggle although i have completed that distance before...

my calf muscles were almost giving way... worse still, i was feeling this "heat" at my abdomen area.. felt like my intestines were like twisting and tossing around.. hahaha.. first time felt it this way.. but still, ran abt 400m towards the ending line.. woohoo~ proud of my achievement.. would be even better if i covered the actual distance... hahaha... *shag cannot think le..* :P

now, i feel like my legs aint my anymore... hahaha... coz of the aches... its like, my legs are another entity of its own!!! wa lao... damn jialat... but, i guess, i just gotta live with it... still got the half marathon to attend... the upcoming trainings will probably cover more and more distance... gosh... hope i can bare with it!!! lalala~

actually, my life in service is rather quite a twist for me... as i was alone in bunk for these few days, all my bunk mates are either on leave or stay-out, did abit of thinking...

was rather positive to think that i have became a better person.. knowing how to persevere.. in terms of physical and mental training... know lots of good pple thru service too... although was abit turned off when i thought of those who are kinda like "wayang"..

but, dreaded the feeling when i felt like my freedom was totally disrupted by the service-term.. meaning to say, i felt bonded.. the obligation seems to have made me lost many things i wanted to do..

how should i put it.. ? burden? maybe that is the word...

put aside all those luxurious time i am thinking of if i was to be a civilian... i am more like deprived off the chance which i can spend with both my family and friends... although most of the time, i reject their invitation to have fun during the weekends... but then, most of the time, i was overwhelmed by the thought of just staying home and spending more time alone...

quality time, it should be... that goes well for me... as i always have feel that it will.. :P

besides the friends and family factor, i also felt that i am being tied down from getting a chance to go into a relationship... not that i am already in one or what... just that, the fact that i am still a NSF do make me somehow, felt inferior to others... moreover, like what i have concluded with many of my NSF friends... getting into a relationship while in service, is one thing which will bring in loads of worries... come on.. lets just face the reality that men do get into the tender hooks when they are not with their partner... may it be a strong one, or a faint one, it will still always be there... hai... problems!

all these are just thoughts... plain thoughts of my... i dont know how others feel about it... but, their stand definately does differ from my...

bleahz... enough said... rubbish throughout my entry... i better brace myself for the upcoming 14km run this friday... hope it will be a breeze to me!!! *shivers*

now, before i end this posting, let me just share with u readers a song... this song have been in my mind since last week... it also "accompanied" me during my 12km run... enjoy...

叶子

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔
孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你