Thursday, January 10, 2008

i must and i have to!

control!!!

have more self-control with my feelings and everything of me!

why.. ? coz, i find that there is a need for it...

I don't want to frighten her off... :X


Anyway, am going to Thailand for the rest of the month...

Gosh... Wanted so much to make a skip over it... But, no choice... was somewhat "forced" to go lah... :<


Lastly, just wanna say i miss her.. :)

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Summarizing 2007...

Been quite some time since i last blogged.. As such, i think, for my this long-awaited entry onto my digital diary, it should be slightly longer as from the norm.. :P

So, beware! =P

Alright... as per the a/b mentioned... i think, i should highlight on the key events/memories of what happened in 2007 on me... (at least they are the ones that are still in my mind.. :P)

Hmmm... start of the year... I think on January

Went Taiwan for my finale stint at School of Armour... was really a tiring one.. especially the cleaning up session spent there.. Wa.. can die lah... make me feel so like a slave... doing all the cleaning and such.. Please lor.. i don't even clean up my room... what do you expect much? :P

The time at Taiwan was really a highlight sia.. Braving the cold weather.. learning how to appreciate the people around me, my section mates.. my platoon mates.. my course mates.. wa... really miss the time there.. :X

Weather was tat cold till training was cancelled... the sleepless nights... the nights which make me feel like a bangala... Hahaha... too bad i don't have a chance to show u the photos of the bunk.. you will be shocked for sure!

The night after the range... My conversation with my follow section mate was overheard by my Plt Sgt... HAHAHA! damn funny lah... stupid Shengyuan.. Lucky enough for both of us... My Plt Sgt find it more of humourous than offensive.. :D

One more thing about the Taiwan training... saw a dog which was badly hurt by a stupid civilian car driver.. it was so badly hurt till i could see its leg's bone sticking out lor... Although it is just an animal, but, my heart still went out to it... so poor thing lah... so wanna help it... but, i cant... not within my discretion to do so...

Ah!!! And, the R&R at Taiwan.. wah lao!!! So nice lah!! Was on a shopping spree there lor... Spending so simply... My first time doing such big spending on clothings lor... On top of that, sneaking out during the night to go have a "taste" of Taiwan's night life... was really impressive... an eye opener, indeed! :P


Next went along during on Feb, was my passing out parade from the School of Armour..

Finally.. after 5mths of rigorous training, i am getting the three stripes which took me nearly 10mths to achieve... a new chapter of begins when one closes in...

The 5mths... many things happened... from the navigation exercises... to the dirty job of maintaining my vehicle.. onto the moments of laughters in the bunk... lastly, to the tiring times during outfield... everything seems so detailed in my mind... making it all feels like happened just yesterday...

But, it was all rewarded with a merit award during my passing out parade... the Silver Bayonet.. nothing big deal.. but, at least, it was an affirmation over the efforts i have given in during the close-to-half-yr time there...

Most importantly, the friends i make back then.. making it all feel so worthwhile... Great people... great companions.. and great buddies in times of need! :)


Straight after passing out, seeing my friends all being posted to active units, i was the only one whom headed out from my vocation into another...

Went to Air Force to learn how to fly...

Looking back at this short period of time, the application didn't come easy...

Remembering the moment i tried my luck on the application back in my days at Tekong... till the moment i stepped into it, it took me more than 11mths to do so! Not forgetting, the 6 test tube of blood samples they drew from me... and, that little bottle of my waste... HAHAHA... all seems so worth it back then... :X

Finally signed onto the dotted line confirming my vocation as a "Pilot Trainee" just days before my birthday during the late moments of April...

Getting to know the culture of Air Force was already a cultural shock back then... From the Physical training emphasis i received during my time in the Army to the Mentally based training i get from the Air Force, it all feels so different..

Spent half a month of my time in Air Force School... Waaa... really hoped that i get such a lifestyle for the rest of my NSF days... :D

Everything was more of a self-disciplined mode unlike the time of superior-supervision treatment i received during the early part of the yr... Hahaha...

Initially, i dreaded the feeling of needing to know new people at Air Force School... but, it all turns out good... coz, i got to know 5 main different souls there... of course, there were like a few side-kicks lah... but still, i think i should mention this 5 souls i got acquitted to...

Ervin, an very capable person... Very self-disciplined... Knowing what is and have to be done everytime we looked upon him... Great personality... Tats no doubt why he gotten the Sword of Honour eh.. Anyway, on a personal note, "Hope you are doing well back in the Force... must achieve for what you set out for... Don't make it an effort wasted like how i did... And, can you kindly tell Ralph that you need not have him to teach you anymore? Hahaha... on top of that, let him put a stop to his childish comments which he forwarded to you during Stage 1 ba... (i don't want to teach you already.. you fly yourself!) LOL.."

Daren, a very street smart person... who gets a hold of technology quite well... Hope you are doing good at your current vocation... Although you didnt get what you achieved, it doesnt bode misfortune, ok? Who knows... you might get to be a commercial pilot one day.. ? Look forward for the better... :) Lastly, i wish you all the best that will happen to you and your gf... :)

Zames, Zzzzzzz-ames~ Speedy Tay~ Hahaha... yes.. you still owe us a song(i dont count the one you sang back in the church... coz, it was dedicated to all... not us exclusively.. :X)... Heh heh... Likewise to what i mentioned to Ervin... Hope you get what you want! Get me those wings!!! (*Psss... if possible, get me one for remembrance sake...? :P) Stay positive always... ok? You are doing fine and great there! And, when you get married, remember to invite me hor.. ;) (PS: Yes.. i know i still yet to get the CD from you... will do so soon... hahahah... :X)

Nicholas, the quietest of us all... Hahaha... What to say about this guy.. ? Errr... but actual fact, i find you very intelligent... Knowing of what you want... and what you set out for... Maybe, the time at Air Force wasnt what you were looking for... But, i am very sure that you will achieve the high of your life outside... Finish ur time in the Army one piece, ok, combatant!? :D

Last but not the least, Ashley... Eh, pharmacist-to-be... the super mugger of our batch... HAHAHA... can also be considered the closest to me during my time there... Hahaha.. really enjoyed the time at the recruitment centre, school and air grading centre with you... Yup... remembering the moments whereby we were networking with each other on Winning Eleven even when we are in our individual room's toilet... HAHAHA... was really fun... another thing... Middlesbrough is still losing out to Manchester United... we are just so gonna trash your team lor.. :D

Then, it all came to the moment i took the flight to the Air Grading Centre... Australia, Tamworth...

Was much more of happy than nervous when i embarked onto the journey...

But, it all turned to a nightmare when i arrived there...

Shall not mention on what happened... just that, it slowly make me realise that the life i looked upon to during the 10mths as an NSF was what i perceive now as an illusion...

And, yes, i dropped out... whether by coincidence prior to my decision above or any other things, it all boils down to much of *Oops~* :D

Coming on to June... did my exit from Air Force and back to Army... had a somewhat "final" gathering with the above mentioned friends... meeting most of their other halfs... and of course, inclusion of Melissa, our young and RICH psycho... hahaha... yes.. i still think that she is rich lor... Fancy driving a RX-8... at such a young age... wa lao... who will believe you are drawing a miser pay!? LOL... :D


On came July... my entry to the current unit... Hahaha... very dreadful but still, didnt have the luxury of choice... ended up into a combat unit... :X

First person which i encountered? Chris... Hahaha... the disruptee from service... the already-in-the-force since 2003 guy... Hahaha... frankly, he dont look like the rich kid he is lor... But, the eventual fact, he is from a much well-to-do family...

Although, i must say, his mentality is much of a difference from my.. but yet, to each of his own... i wish you all the best in Australia man... make it big... and, one day, i shall visit you there! heehee... :D

Met many good souls at my current unit... from the previous superiors, Cpt Ho, Staff Chris(Although quite debate-able of us capabilities...), Staff Ong, JG, Ben Ben, Binghan, Martin, ZiXian, Yanxiang, William, Tuangster(U know who you are...), YS and, yes.. wont forget you lah, "Lin Jia Xiao Hai"... plus many many others... it was really nice working with you all... although there were moments of toughness and slackness in both mix, i still enjoyed... as such, lets look forward for better times up ahead, ok!?


Lastly, .... my time from November 9th till now... met with the special her...

Bring my mood into a roller coaster ride... Having the Ups and Downs... although i must say, most of the time, it was at the Ups... :D, but, the times of Downs really brought me to the rock bottom...

December 24th-25th... Our first Christmas outing... at the we-both-know-where location.. was really a pleasant one.. Walked through the path 2 times in total.. Hahaha... so nice... never felt walking at that time at that place would feel so great..

December 28th... Ah... lovely moment at the again-we-both-know-where location... Heh heh... remember to take good care of the "witness" over our start.. k? ;)

Like what we both said, it all happens so unexpectedly... so, let us bring it on to an expectedly happy picture, ok?

I know it isnt easy or fair for you... having to wait for some many period of time... from small(China) to big ones(Thailand, Australia)... nevertheless, i hope we both go through these together... must try... alright?

Looking forward onto many many more Ups with you... :)



As such, i guess, i will end this entry... it is quite long enough, isnt it... ? So much so that i am sorta lazy to read it through before publishing it... so, bare with all the tenses mistake and such... :)