lately, my life really suc*..
nothing seems to go right for me..
everything just comes in a chuck.. and, at times, i wonder, when will i break down..
if that happens, what kinda person will i be..
what will happen in the future?
will there be one for me.. ?
took time to ponder upon these questions.. and, just like what others will think.. yes, i dun have an answer to it..
but, the mere thought of it scares me..
why am i given this "chance" to think about these.. ?
what i perceive as happiness and simplicity has all turned out to be an illusion..
a mirage.. ?
surely and simply, i hope it isnt...
if all these happenings are just a test to my character, then, i can tell you, i seriously fluck it big time...
really.. nothing seems to go right.. simply nothing..
it just needs one small spark to create a forest fire... and yes, this time rd, it isnt gonna be easy to clear what had happened...
and, i totally feel it..
no, to your answer if all these i have just said is about my rs...
like i mentioned.. its for EVERYTHING... and, it is inclusive..
really feel like running away from all these.. the thought of it just thrills me.. running away...
maybe tat can be a choice too...
really feel like just breaking down.. and get myself into a hibernating mode.. isolating from the messes..
it will all happen after my SOC test.. when i pass it.. i'll start to think it thru..